Being free from terror
Mandala Oracle Card Reading - New Moon in Leo - Aug 2 2016
We've been learning how to move through fears of trauma, heartbreak, rejection and manipulation. We've been learning how to respond to internal and external pressures from the present moment, rather than from patterned behavior. We've been learning we always have a choice between doing the inner work it takes to see and feel results or staying trapped by fear.
We've been learning how to live with and discern between the voice of ego and the voice of intuition. This is no easy task. It is the ego's role to keep us safe inside pattern, as the ego cannot understand or assist us in making decision from anything it hasn't yet experienced. We must regard and respect this voice, as it is a part of our experience, without letting it choose for us from its limited perspective. We cannot grow if we cannot change and change is a must. It is a constant, therefore moving against it is counterproductive for all of us.
If we refuse to do what is difficult and what needs to change in order for our species to evolve, we harm the collective. Our work effects all work. Our energy effects all energy. Simultaneously, if we do not challenge the fears our ego presents to us through habit and limiting self-beliefs, we miss out on so many amazing opportunities to move past what keeps us stuck in our own lives. Free will is ours if we can only remember we have it, when pressed up against a habit that is stubborn or stressful to deal with.
We must continue to discover, experience and build upon the benefits change and inner work bring. Massive payoffs, such as: increased peace and ease; deeper connection with spirit; greater abundance flowing in the forms of unconditional love, joy and money; the ability to be more empathetic and compassionate to others' pain; to sit comfortably in our own discomfort without breaking apart. These are very real opportunities that exist for each of us, but we must unlearn what we have been taught about who we are and what is possible. We believe in these things when experiencing them ourselves. Remembering and getting to know our own power is the road to change.
We are being asked to continue setting compassionate boundaries with any choice that does not serve us and anyone who drains us, disrespects us, questions our authenticity or our inherent right to direct ourselves, our beliefs and our bodies. We each have our own unique realities to honor and maintain, yet we must also be cautious when discerning between necessary self-care and inflexibility. We must practice self-awareness while remaining comfortable in uncomfortable conversation and circumstance. We must stay present with dis-ease without sacrificing our hearts to our fears or the fears of others. When we act while triggered, we spread more dis-ease. When we feel guilty, shameful or bad for acting while triggered, we further this vicious cycle.
Let us make choices from a place of strength, faith, and love without chasing perfectionism or needing to be good or right. Let us maintain our balance by setting expansive, open-hearted boundaries with those who remain shut down to love. Let us stand in the face of our fears and say with wide-open hearts: "You cannot wound me because I don't reject what is difficult. I don't resist what causes me discomfort. I awaken to the challenge you present and I say to you and to myself with courage and commitment: I love you anyway."
Let us then break into the tears and the grief which often lies behind such action and feel all the feelings backed up behind fear and become free from the terror we cause ourselves.